Full stop

Had a dream that dragged on for five years or so...

Today, I've woken up from it ;)

Moved on - for real.

Oh but, before I do, just want to say it for the LAST time (I swear)...

I was true.

Goodbye.

Oops I couldn't recognise my own blog!

The design has changed - probably gonna change again 'cos I think it's... :x

Stayed home the whole day, spent 70% of my time on youtube videos.

Thought about having my own productions (not that I'm talented enough)

But yknow, people try and learn and grow up.

But before I could focus on all the arts stuff, maybe I should get serious on the packing.

(you should see what state my room is in now...)

Have a number of tasks on today's list but I only completed one, which is laundry :0

Let's get started........ Oh no! It's 4:36PM already?!?!?!

Man, I'd have to do it tmr then.

Tomorrow never comes :)

Uh oh!

Suddenly came to realise that.........

I've slacked away one and a half months! :x

Mans. Gonna start working on the things I've planned to work on

when I was still in Hays.

Lots and lots of tasks on hand.

First up: exercise.

Tomorrow shall be the start of my personal training!

Also planned to finish learning a few songs on piano (keyboard, actually)...

So. Let's set a deadline, by 1 May? Hahah! Jiayou :D

Next...... Maybe do up more drawings/shadings and then post onto whatdoyouseewhenyoucloseyoureyes ;)

...Oops! Dinner time :D

ciaos!

ninefourzero <3

About Grandma

Just wrote a new story (after such a long while) in whatdoyouseewhenyoucloseyoureyes ;)

I can't believe how emotional I felt when I was writing the story...

Yknow, considering the fact that I've never met my grandma before.

Maybe it's just this... kinship thing that never fails to make people emotional.

Also attached xiaohuangqi's "ahma eh wei"...

cried when I listened to it.

So, enjoy ;)

EMO POSTS NO MORE!

Hello 2011! :)

Hello April 2011.

Mans, April's fool day just went past like that :o

Okay. the durian in my stomach is creating havoc. Haahhaaa

Blog again sooooon ;D

Ciaos.

jocelyn

MIAN BI SI GUO

just smile and learn to love life as it is

my story corner! ;)

http://whatdoyouseewhenyoucloseyoureyes.blogspot.com

and waves washed me back to the shore

some family drama over here,
which pulls me harshly back to the reality of life.
and back to the starting point of many things.
im currently in a confused stage, of life. all over again.
i promise the post will end in a different note.

...

so my conclusion from this incident is:
for being sincere and loving, this is what i get in return.
for being nice, this is your attitude that my parents have to put up with.

is this a representation of life,
or am i microscoping into it too much?
and i got a conclusion. yes, life is indeed like this.
and the fuckiest thing is, we have to accept it this way.

but here's jocelyn's vow.

i will ammend my bad (based on the feedback from my mom and jiejie).
i want to grow up and be a good girl, not one who throws tantrums.
and, im going to continue to be sincere in life ;)

this incident has hit me hard, just like a broken relationship.
it had disheartened me about life once again.
but consurrently, it brought me back to the deep thoughts point,
from which i realised, and was reminded,
that i shall continue to stick to my principle of being truthful.
'cos there're still people who love me and whom i love.
out there, waiting for me to stand up after this cry.
i know there's at least one person who's waiting for me to
make him proud.
i won't let you down.

here's jocelyn. swimming towards the centre of the ocean. against the current. again.

HR DAY 2010

LOTS OF AND LOTS OF THANKS.
really appreciate your efforts, people.

from organisers to lecturers
to the most crucial facilitators and station masters
and the emcees from mr and mrs tan.co
and the participants
and the photographers
and those who've helped to move heavy and light things here and there
and, everything else yaa, even if it's just standing there and doing nth
thanks for perspiring for the HR DAY.

Really full of gratitude now mann.
esp to the year 3s ;)
expected year 3s to be the most reluctant yknow x)
but in the end, WOOOOOH.

So happy to see everyone play and laugh and enjoy =')
it makes me feel tt my effort has been totally paid off.

also, thanks elsonbaby for all the moral support even though you've a long day of work.
and thanks brother for all the messages even though it's hard for you to sms.

I LOVE YOU'ALL! :D
Cheers,
jocelyn!

blood and sweat

ytd i got real tired and i asked myself:
why am i stressing out over something that no one bothers
or, something that everyone don't want.

but, okay. frankly speaking, i haven't gotten any answer yet. xO
but i can only continue to walk straight.
and hope that people can see our efforts one day! ;D

sincere efforts,
jocelyn.

30/04/10 :(:

ten things that upset me today :(
1. c
2. o
3. u
4. r
5. s
6. e
7. t
8. e
9. e
10. s

ten things that made my day :)
1. hugs and kisses from nosle
2. nosle waited for me for so many hours ;)
3. saw my darlingliling today! hughug!
4. eleanor asked if im feeling okay
5. im getting better!
6. nosle's twiggies! and cream! :P
7. brother passed his live firing
8. it's labour day tmr
9. had bad headache but i also had nosle
10. im here for mummy when needs me

anways
who's nosle? it's my
babylove
ELSON! ;D

with smiles,
jocelyn!

let me just sit down here for a moment

rights, baby. today just felt like a super happy day to start with
but then everything started to die off.

finally got to wear shoes! ah-haa, comfy comfy ;D
tgt with my sp S$16 (cos everyone's asking) pullover,
which eventually got me perspiring like mr hareesh and mr larry =x
love them.

see facebook and im so grrrrr that i missed 4h outing :(
sad. i miss them. really ahhh.
chose to stay with family;
considering daddy mummy's ages...
it's more appropriate to babysit yah.
i still love all of you ;D

anyway i didn't regret bahh, not much time left with babies i think.
sad sad sad ahhh. ROAR.
D:

next, no more honour roll.
it hit me A BIT ;) at first. only!
and now im really fine lahssss.
anyway i started out poly without any aims or competitiveness ;D
now im just back to what i used to be, baby.

and.
family stuffs.
mamamiaaaaaaaaaaa.

rest time for jocelyn, darlings.
BRB ;)
hook pinkies!

the only way not to get disappointed, is to never hope for it in the first place. ESP for things that you know will never happen.

unrecognised scars

bet you or someone around you have encountered
this kind of situation before;
guy makes girl angry unknowingly,
girl stays angry,
guy stays ignorant,
girl feels even more angry,
guy still stays ignorant.

conclusion,
girl should let guy know.
or else, guy will still stay ignorant.
if girl chooses to continue bottling up,
then don't blame him for being ignorant.
another alternative, if girl doesn't want to let guy know,
then forget about the unhappy issue and move on ;)

well, it's just a random thought of the day for ya ;)